Yesterday I posted a picture of Niguel and I and wished for a time machine. I promised you and explanation. You see if I could have gone back to that day it would be November now and I would be 7 months away from what happened yesterday. What happened yesterday was this...
My first born was promoted to Jr. High. She was awarded the Presidential Academic Award for maintaining a 3.5 or higher grade point average. So over the top proud of her.
How could this have happened to me. Just a few days ago we were having our first day in kindergarten.
I have been on the edge of an emotional cliff for weeks. I have not been able to hear; 1 week till summer vacation, jr. high, promotion, graduation, or anything of the such without breaking into tears. It kind of feels selfish, and I don't want to hold her back. I know the best is yet to come with this girl and she'll keep making me more and more proud with each of her achievements. But would I stop time?
No, not forever but absolutely for a day here and there.
Really I have just enjoyed this time with her so much that I haven't wanted it to end. I knew there wouldn't be anymore field trips, volunteering in class, holding hands while walking to line, going to school to see the class lists for the new year, and so many more Elementary school things. I know I won't be able to be on campus anytime I want to see her. I'm just sad! There... I said it.... I'm sad. I'm not ready for it to be over. But it is.
Niguel on the other hand is so ready. She is so confident and really pulling at the reigns that I am holding on to so tightly. She cries when she sees me crying because she knows I am sad and she is sensitive like that. Compassionate and smart as a whip. She's an all around good girl you know what I am most proud of is that I really feel that anyone I know would tell you the same things about her.
But please... How about this day again?
Or this one?
Or this one?
I bet in two years when she is finishing up 8th grade i'll be blogging and wishing for this day again. And I bet i'll be just as much of a wreck. Ahhhh... the pleasures of being a mother.
What a great day! Enjoy the moments they fly fast. Miss you and I'm glad to see you have such a great summer. June
Posted by: June | June 25, 2010 at 05:46 AM
Aw, Deena...you made me cry! Thanks for reminding me to cherish every day with my girls, b/c that kindergarten picture is coming right around the corner for me!
What a beautiful, intelligent daughter! Congrats to her and YOU!
Posted by: Kim Papac | June 24, 2010 at 11:53 PM
She is beautiful & smart! Look out world!!
Posted by: Debra | June 24, 2010 at 08:09 PM
What a beautiful young lady your daughter is Deena. I can totally sympathise, I truly can. My twins will be leaving primary school in just 4 days time. I have managed to keep it pretty much together so far, but we have to face the leavers assembly on Wednesday morning. DD said "they are probably putting the parents at the top of the hall so we won't see them crying"; just as well I say. Aghhh ....
Posted by: scrappysue | June 24, 2010 at 10:16 AM
Deena, I remember that kinder picture like it was yesterday. I have one of Cami and her together on that first day of elementary school. It brings back many memories for me as well. I feel the tug at my heart strings just as much. Even though Cami has one more year, my Becky graduates from High School tonight...ugh! Where has all the time gone?? Niguel is a beautiful girl. Let her know many congratulations from the Finns.
Posted by: Julee | June 24, 2010 at 09:57 AM
ah the joys of motherhood. Sounds to me as though you are counting your blessings. Many more to come! Sweet pic's!
Posted by: wendy hendyerson | June 24, 2010 at 07:18 AM
I don't even have kids, and you have me balling! What a beautiful commentary on raising a smart, confident young lady! Congrats to you and Randy for being great parents, you know you have much to be proud of- you both made this young lady what she is through consistent parenting, love, giving her room to grow while setting limits! Kudos to you both! Congrats Niguel on moving on to the BIG 7th grade!
Posted by: cathy somdahl | June 24, 2010 at 06:29 AM
awww....now you have me crying in my morning Diet Pepsi! Niquel is so beautiful...wow, she has really grown up this year. Last year I went through all those emotions you are experiencing as Jessie moved to Middle School this last year. Now, she is literally "in the middle" as a 7th grader....YIKES! That means only two years until High School. Can't wait for her to experience life but the other day I forced her to snuggle up on my lap....she is nearly as tall as me so that was quite a site! None the less I found myself wishing I could just go back for a day to remember her little self tucked safely in my arms.
Loves and Hugs to you.....
Posted by: Shari Anderson | June 24, 2010 at 05:04 AM