Yesterday I posted a picture of Niguel and I and wished for a time machine. I promised you and explanation. You see if I could have gone back to that day it would be November now and I would be 7 months away from what happened yesterday. What happened yesterday was this...
How could this have happened to me. Just a few days ago we were having our first day in kindergarten.
I have been on the edge of an emotional cliff for weeks. I have not been able to hear; 1 week till summer vacation, jr. high, promotion, graduation, or anything of the such without breaking into tears. It kind of feels selfish, and I don't want to hold her back. I know the best is yet to come with this girl and she'll keep making me more and more proud with each of her achievements. But would I stop time?
No, not forever but absolutely for a day here and there.
Really I have just enjoyed this time with her so much that I haven't wanted it to end. I knew there wouldn't be anymore field trips, volunteering in class, holding hands while walking to line, going to school to see the class lists for the new year, and so many more Elementary school things. I know I won't be able to be on campus anytime I want to see her. I'm just sad! There... I said it.... I'm sad. I'm not ready for it to be over. But it is.
Niguel on the other hand is so ready. She is so confident and really pulling at the reigns that I am holding on to so tightly. She cries when she sees me crying because she knows I am sad and she is sensitive like that. Compassionate and smart as a whip. She's an all around good girl you know what I am most proud of is that I really feel that anyone I know would tell you the same things about her.
But please... How about this day again?
Or this one?