Emotional

Please hold on while I take a break for a little pity party. Today i'm wavering between being mad and sad. Something silly has me going. But apparently it was alot more important to me that I thought it was. Can I share??? You see I have had the same answering machine greeting for eight years. I remember the day like it was yesterday, two babies (Niguel 4 and Ky 3) sitting on my kitchen counter. I whispered in their ears what to say and they alternated back and forth and recorded our message.

This is the Zieglers... We're not home... leave a message... and we'll call you back... ruff... meow... Beeeeep...

I loved it the day we did it, but as the years have passed by I have grown to really cherish this message. I could call home anytime and hear my little girl voices. Little voices I have missed as they grow up. A little trip back in time for me.

I've known and thought about the day the recorder would die and need replaced but there just was no way to transfer the recording to another device. Today was that day! I called home to retrieve a message and there was an automated greeting, I hung up... I must have the wrong number. I called again, same greeting. I instantly cry! I feel devastated because I know its gone forever... FOREVER!

I  know that i'm over reacting about this. I also know that i've been on the brink of a break down about my girls growing up oh, since the day they were born.

Do I have other recordings? Yes I do but since I heard this one so much it had a special place in my heart. I've talked myself off the ledge now and am so grateful I have my girls to hear their voices any time. Now my heart just aches for my little recording.

Off to make something to take my mind off it. Silly Mommy stuff... feeling blessed I don't have a real problem.

Comments

[angel31877.blogspot.com]

So sorry. I don't think it is silly at all. I can just imagine your heart sinking feeling.

[karla]

i hear this loud and clear. i have ONE tape of my baby girl crying (not hard, just waking up) when she was just a few weeks old... and when i listen to it i cry like a baby myself!! she's 28 years old... and it still takes me immediately back to when i thought i was gonna burst from all the love i have for that child!! this was such a sweet post!! love you all the more for it!! you're such a good mom!!

[karla]

you are the sweetest thing!!

[cathy somdahl]

I don't have kids, but I know how time flies, and it's the little things that can move us to tears. I know I cried several times looking through photo albums, reading old love letters (from my hubby) from when we were dating our 13 year anniversary is this coming Monday-, seeing my (now deceased) grandparents's images staring back at me in old photos, realizing my little brother is 33 years old (yikes). I definitely can relate! You are very blessed, but it is completely normal for you to "grieve" over the loss of this irreplaceable recorded treasure! You always have my cyber-shoulder to cry on, my dear sweet friend.

[Jill Pierce]

Oh, that is sooo sad! I'm sorry!

[steph]

oh no....I am sad, too.

[Suzanne Klein]

love your story. I would be crushed as well.

[Suzanne]

I can totally understand! Wish our children would not grow up so quickly!!!

[Cori]

Ah! :(

[tchrtiff]

So not silly Mommy stuff! I'd be in tears about the lost recording. So very sorry to hear that the sweet recording is gone. You need to make a scrapbook page so you (and your girls) will always remember the significance of it.

Heck, I was in tears the other day when I found out make up picture day had been moved up one day and the school didn't tell anyone. I imagined my daughter's photo, with big scab on tip of her nose, being in class photo and in yearbook. I cried and cried. Hubby called the principal and she admitted there was a communication problem and she'll get the photo company back out to do another set of make ups. One of those things--school photos are never that great but they're a memory, a moment in time and everyone has to have a class photo.